I grew up a skinny kid, I mean really skinny. Ribs were visible. Knees knobbed. My dad said that when I wore shorts I looked like a pair of pliers. All through my high school and college years my inseam possessed a larger number than my waist, and through it all I ate with abandon.
"Yes, I'll have the 20 piece chicken nuggets. Ten tacos? No Problem. You know what makes a Big Mac even better? Another Big Mac!". Ah, that was the life, unlimited food without consequences.
But eventually it caught up with me. It really seemed like one night I went to sleep one night blissfully slim and woke up to find my face had grown two new chins and bending down to tie my shoes was a lot harder. I was forced to face the ugly truth, I had turned into a fat guy.
This realization resulted in me experiencing 6 different stages of fat guyness:
- Denial (I'm not fat, I just finally filled out),
- Bargaining (OK, I'll eat the Ultimate Cheeseburger today and I won't eat the rest of the week),
- Anger (Which one of you jerks stole my metabolism?)
- Depression ( I feel sad sad, maybe a pizza will make me happy)
- Indifference ( I could lose it anytime I want, I'm just not sure I want to) and finally
- Acceptance (I like being fat. I refuse to conform to society's superficial standards).
Truth be told I have lost weight several times. I have even kept if off for several years. But, stuff happens and food's siren song always beckons. Eventually I wake up and once again see a fat guy staring back at me from the bathroom mirror. Over the last couple of years my I have lost and refound the same 25 pounds several times. I believe it is time for me to get off the weight loss trampoline.
I recently opened a Facebook account. One reason for doing that was for greater accountability. I figured committing to make weekly weigh in reports on there will create incentive to stay the course. The possibility of public shame and scorn is powerful. In December I am going to California for a wedding and to spend Christmas with family . I want to weigh less than 200 pounds by then. In addition to my Facebook updates I'll use this blog to occasionally provide more details and observations about the process, Wish me luck.
